I really don't know what to think of this place lately. This is my 135th article, and I am sitting comfortably poised as JU's most entertaining, comical and original blogger. I don't know how many people voted, it doesn't really matter... my ego is happily saturated with good thoughts though, and I am happy I have received recognition just for being myself, I cannot emphasise that point enough.
I have got to say though, I am becoming a bit apprehensive about airing my dirty laundry on this website. Certain private issues that should not be discussed between individuals on public forums just keep on popping up, and its making me angry. This is probably one of the few Blogs you will see from me about blogging, but its simply become part of my life, and I cant ignore that anymore!
Its also weird, because as my JU career continues, you find out who your real friends are and the people that really do care about what's going on in your life, as compared to the post whores who just want another 5 points. The people that care, you know who you are... and if I haven't done it enough over the past few days, I must continue to thank-you. You also learn that people who you were good friends with at one point of time on the site, have simply grown apart because of revelations of beliefs etc. simply different people, and there is no point trying to get a long with them if they don't agree with who you are.
I am also undergoing a dilemma as well... a lot of my friends ask me about thoughts on happenings, musings or antics, and I want to point them to my blog, but I don't really think that's a wise idea in most cases. I relish the privacy and the will to type whatever I want... however, all they need do is type Muggaz in Google and my game is up... I am not afraid of anyone reading anything, because I would have said it to them in real life anyway, just the fact that it's playing on your mind 'what if' so and so reads this???
I suppose JU has just become another of lifes little problems, because i am struggling to fit in here at the moment... people are making me angry, and sometimes showing their true colours, and they are not the people i took them for. It seems the only true ally i have at times is Sir Peter Maxwell, for which i am most grateful, if were to choose any ally, it would be him!
I just want JU to be fun, and unfortunately, actually building relationships with certain people has only let me down. It's not often you will get a whinging blog from me, and I would just like to finally note, that i have faith in everyone on the website, except Marvin Cooley, and JU will still become one hot location for Blogging superstars (Sir Peter Maxwell) and groupies (Myself), please just remember it is public forums, and there are some things we just dont want to know, and because it is a community, you may just burn more than one bridge.
BAM!!!