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Published on November 25, 2004 By Muggaz In Blogging
As a citizen of the world, I knew the result of the American election would have a profound effect on me, but I never knew it would have the effect it has. Since George W. Bush won his second term in office, I have become completely apolitical.

Political concerns have always been part and parcel of what I am, or was, alas, I have lost faith in the world and human nature in general. I won’t go as far as to say I am now an anarchist, but I would be brash enough to say that we deserve an asteroid. I am a person, this gives me a natural ability and responsibility to care for people, yet as each day goes past, and the more I read the news, the more I find myself loathing what I consider to be idiocy and contempt for our world and environment.

I am not really complaining though, it was easy enough to change – I simply don’t read the political news anymore. I find myself skimming through news for anything important, but admittedly, I don’t really take anything in. People ask me what kind of day it is, I look outside, and if the sun is shinning, it’s a nice day – am I a bad person if I don’t care about bombs dropping on Fallujah, or if the foreign secretary of the United States is a Neo-Con with no Internationalist concerns at all?

It would seem as though with time, as I learn more about the world, the keener I am to distance myself from it. Can I maintain personal ethics whilst becoming completely amoral? Apathy seems like such a nasty and selfish term, am I a pathetic young man? Am I writing this and sharing my thoughts with you to validate my personal beliefs? The less I care about the world; it would seem as though the less I care what the world thinks of me.

This quarter life crisis in ascertaining who I am, or who I will become is lasting quite some time. Some mornings I wake up, and I want to go and help land mine victims in Cambodia or something, but others I wake up and I just ask what the point of helping these people is? All it would do is open my eyes to further pain and suffering. Am I bypassing the chance to mould the world? Is my slowly developing apathy letting the world mould me?

In this age of individuality, it is apparent to me that we aren’t really individuals at all. All this thinking really is a bad past time, because my thoughts only lead to negativity – whilst life is good for me, I can only think about humanity as whole, and how we deserve an asteroid so innocence is born again.

I wouldn’t call it a defeatist attitude; I would just say the balance of my internal power has shifted. I used to be driven by the black and white of right and wrong, yet as I grow older, I worry less about the future, and the realisation that life is one big grey area is dawning upon me. It’s changing who I am, or what I thought I was…

Oh well… no one said life was going to be easy… who cares if I am apathetic? Man, Life is complicated.

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on Nov 25, 2004
Don't worry, you'll be voting Liberal and wearing cardigans in no time. And then you won't ever think about non-Church morality again. I think Churchill got it close when he said, "A young man who isn't socialist has no heart; an old man who isn't capitalist has no brains". The transition isn't going to be easy but you'll get used to it soon enough.
on Nov 25, 2004

who cares if I am apathetic?

yeah.  actually now im wondering how it's possible to be simultaneously 'pathetic' and 'apathetic' when being both 'moral' and 'amoral' or 'political' and 'apolitical' are impossibilties. i mean it is clearly within your power despite the obvious contradiction. this could be worth millions! 

on Nov 25, 2004
I don't want to spoil anything by adding some cynical words on futility, (because, after all, everything IS still a matter of choice), but I like do this writing and find it to be (brutally) honest.
on Nov 25, 2004

"A young man who isn't socialist has no heart; an old man who isn't capitalist has no brains".


no brains?  or just no capital? 

on Nov 26, 2004
no brains? or just no capital?


Thats exactly what I am talking about... In this forsaken world, if you don't have money, you don't have brains - according to the masses at least... yet to get money, you need to step all over the masses...



I like the quote, but the fact it came from a raving alcoholic (the Churchil one, not yours KB) instills a little faith in the middle ground!
on Nov 26, 2004

but the fact it came from a raving alcoholic (the Churchil one


here's one more suited to your mood i think: we make a living by what we get, we make a life by what we give.

on Nov 26, 2004
When it doubt - always ask music. For todays particular answer - the credit must go to Incubus...

I'd like to close my eyes and go numb
but there's a cold wind coming from
the top of the highest high-rise today.
It's not a breeze cause' it blows hard.
Yes and it wants me to discard the humanity I know,
watch the warmth blow away.

So don't let the world bring you down.
Not everyone here is that fucked up and cold.
Remember why you came and while you're alive
experience the warmth before you grow old.

So do you think I should adhere to that pressing new frontier?
And leave in my wake a trail of fear
Or should I hold my head up high
and throw a wrench in spokes by
leaving the air behind me clear

So don't let the world bring you down.
Not everyone here is that fucked up and cold.
Remember why you came and while you're alive
experience the warmth before you grow.

So don't let the world bring you down.
Not everyone here is that fucked up and cold.
Remember why you came and while you're alive
experience the warmth before you grow old.

Before you grow old.
Where did it go?

Good Show... thanks for your comments guys
on Nov 26, 2004
Ive lost faith in the human race a long time ago. But ive used my lack of faith (somehow) as a drive to change this world. I dont trust people but I want to help them. Sometimes I hate my life but I always want it to be worth something. I do it not for humans though, I do it for hope, hope that we can change, hope that things can turn around, hope that this planet can become better
Hope is futile. No expectations, no dissappointments
Abandon all hope and you abandon all life. If you trust no one, you set yourself up for a dissappointment

All your base
on Nov 27, 2004
I definitely care about the goings on of everday issues....i read ...i watch..i listen....wanting to know every detail of what is going on and where....and yes, I do find myself wanting to help, and wishing I could do this and that....or wishing someone else would do something.
But, I, too, have those days when I throw my hands up in the air and think...what CAN be done?...How can it be resolved? When ARE things going to change?

All we can do is hope for the best.

on Nov 30, 2004

"So don't let the world bring you down.
Not everyone here is that fucked up and cold."

Take that advice,  yo.  I'm sew'n that shit on a pillow. 

""If you trust no one, you set yourself up for a dissappointment"" 

You definately just contradicted yourself, bro.  That makes no sense.  If you DO trust anyone, you set yourself up for dissappointment.  So, I guess you lose either way, eh?

Trinitie


on Nov 30, 2004

oh, by the way, nice title, very creative.

Trinitie

on Dec 02, 2004
hehe - Thanks Trin... I want to get it on a T-Shirt... with one of these on it

It's all good... i had a good week this week, and the world may be pretty faaaarked, but yeah, some people are cool and specila - you are but one of them
on Dec 04, 2004
"Some mornings I wake up, and I want to go and help land mine victims in Cambodia or something, but others I wake up and I just ask what the point of helping these people is? All it would do is open my eyes to further pain and suffering."

It's the same with love. When you love someone, the loss will be unbearable, oh no you don't want that to happen to you. But if you refuse to have any love in your life, what are you doing on earth in the first place???
on Dec 04, 2004
Life’s wretched tow, Old Boy, is like the proverbial razor’s edge, straight & narrow & difficult to tread. A patrician such as you must endeavor to curl his bloody toes & hold on to the clichéd bitter end. When contemplating a potential peasant revolt in which patrician throats would be slit, I believe it was Disareli who said, “Faith in the obstinacy of the upper-class to relinquish its iron-fist grip is our only refuge, my dear Adam."

I say, a patrician soul such as yours, despairing & wobbling, why by Jove stiffen up, Old Boy: The world's your Oyster, your gift, and even whilst the wrapping paper of life is perhaps, at times, sour & displeasing to lick … I say, Old Boy, peel it away & like a pig ... dig deep & suck on the marrow of patrician entitlement. You deserve it. Find your copy of Macbeth; refer to Lord Shakespeare’s lyric: Out out brief candle ... Etc. For, indeed, what is a stage without a fretting player? A conversation with the village idiot, so I say, FRET & STRUT...
on Dec 04, 2004
Throughout the history of mankind there have been many murderers and tyrants; and while it may seem momentarily that they have the upper hand, they have always fallen. -Ghandi
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