I have been doing it all wrong...

There must be wrong to be a right!

Published on September 29, 2004 By Muggaz In Just Hanging Out

Well, theoretically, there is no right or wrong, only boundaries and confines that are placed on us by our peers, I do know I have been crossing those boundaries, and whilst I don’t want to cross them anymore, I want to eliminate them, open the mind and heart, and become a better person.

I don’t know what it is about elections, but they are always a time to assess ones personal values, and mine have been under intense scrutiny of late. I never seem to be able to find my comfort zone, with new affirmations and beliefs creeping into my value system everyday.

When someone I really care about (an American citizen) asked why I hate American’s so much, it dawned on me that I cant really regulate the way I am perceived when there is so much emotion involved, and when she asked me that, it worried me, because if she knows me personally, yet thinks I hate Americans because they are Americans, understandably, the warning sirens were wailing.

Maybe it’s because I am so happy with myself at the moment that all I can think of is cushy love, but being perceived as someone who hates genuinely concerns me, especially when someone I care about so much brings it up.

No one likes a critic, and I find myself critiquing everything I don’t like about everything I do like – obviously, finding faults only encourages feelings of negativity, and there is quite enough of that in the world to go around as it is, so I will have no further part in it.

To me, this means a whole adaptation of writing style, and attempting a differing perception of events. I hope I can discipline myself to realise that caring and doing are completely different things, so to stop the hate, I must show by doing.

I know this doesn’t seem like much, because I am just a naïve young fool who hasn’t experienced anything in life, and to have such a positive outlook and belief that I can hope to see the good in everything, well, that may be a little ambitious; I am only interested in love and happiness though… If only I can just translate that onto the screen and into your minds…

BAM!!! (with love!)

Comments

WiseFawn

on Sep 30, 2004

I've never had the feeling from you that you hate Americans. And I don't think it's too ambitious at all!!!

Mandy

on Sep 30, 2004

Wow good for you mugz!

Well when he writes a blog aobut the 3 types of americans...and all of them being negative , i usually take it as a hint that he doesn't like americans....and he's always saying all the bad stuff about us.....not that we don't do anything bad or aren't mad in certain ways

The Crusaders

on Oct 03, 2004

It takes a much heavier, awesomely draining, negative energy to be angry, bitter and hateful... yet so many people are...they dig themselves down into their pit of negativity (it's a bit like the Bat Cave but a really negative place) and keep digging until the way out is too far out of reach..so they just keep digging. But to be happy and see the positives through the gloom...and to be nice and considerate to other people and tolerant is a different kind of energy that charges your spirit rather than draining it...yet many people don't see this...feel this.. and continue to dig a bitter pit.
Um...what am I trying to say...? ....glad to hear you are making a concious effort to have that positive outlook in your life.....and that I have never thought you hate Americans or anyone through your writing ...you have just been expressing a opinion that has been misconstrued by some and understood by others. What I think we all have to remember is that we all take things in from our own point of view....our own wavelength and sometimes people don't automatically know what angle you are coming from or if there is a hint of sarcasm or humor.....so it is important for us to communicate well by being patient and listening (or reading) and if you feel you have misunderstood someone or have been misunderstood your self that the time is taken for people to re explain further before jumping the gun and becoming upset and angry when there may be no more a reason than a crossing of wires as people were not on the same wavelenght at the time.

Communication is not easy.

EFalgui

on Oct 03, 2004

Your ok in my book... though the reason nfor this might be because im not american. Seriously though i think you get on well enough with most people in this place, anyway more power MuggaZ!!!

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