I went to bed last night, aching from a massive weekend of snowboarding, smoking and drinking – basically debauchery that has made me feel a little worse for wear – I mean, the snowboarding was fantastic, and I had the time of my life, but as I was trying to sleep, coughing and spluttering, I realise part of my life has to change.
Everyone has bad habits, some worse than others, and from my own personal perspective, I have two terrible habits – one is smoking cigarettes, and the other is smoking marijuana. These are two habits I would like to get rid of, in light of making me a better person.
Smoking cigarettes – well, to be honest, on Monday – Friday I would only smoke two a day maximum, one with my coffee in the mornings, and possibly another one at some stage during the day – I know this isn’t excessively bad for me, but once I hit the pubs and clubs, I become a chimney and smoke, and smoke, and smoke some more. When you wake up the next morning with your lungs feeling like an ashen fireplace, it isn’t the greatest feeling in the world.
As far as smoking pot goes – well, I guess that’s a legacy of my youth, and it’s a habit I really want to get rid of. The first time I smoked marijuana was when I was 11 years old, on the last day of year 7, I smoked maybe a handful of times throughout my schooling years, then as soon as school finished It became a habitual weekend thing, and then even during the week, I have no one to blame for falling into this hole other than myself, but I can tell you, the environment of my peers and friends certainly didn’t help.
While marijuana is mostly harmless compared to other drugs, I know the quality of my life will improve if I kick the habit. I haven’t had any psychotic episodes you hear about with people on pot, but I would rather curb the habit before that happens. Whilst it hasn’t had that much a detrimental effect on my social life and motivation, I just know I could be such a better person, and healthier If I quite smoking marijuana. I will tell you right now, after a hard night out clubbing, or a hard weekend snowboarding, I will still enjoy the occasional joint, but I don’t want to make it a weekly thing, which it has been for the last few years.
I know it is going to be very hard work – especially when my immediate circle of friends bar a couple smoke, ciggies, and weed, but the couple that don’t are mates that I spend most of my weekends with, so I think that shall help me in my quest to live a cleaner and healthier life. I have said a few times before that I was going to cut back on weed and give up cigarettes, but I have never followed through – that’s why I am writing it down, for all you guys to see as well.
I have a quarterly bonus from work coming up, and I plan on purchasing some track pants and track shoes so I can get my fitness levels back to when I was a teenager, I will join the gym, and hopefully put some weight on… I am too skinny, and whilst I don’t plan on becoming a muscle bound Adonis, a bit more definition and broadness in the shoulders and arms will make me feel much better about myself…
That’s what this little resolution is all about – I don’t have the disposition to worry about myself so much, but this desire to improve myself isn’t made on the basis of anyone else’s opinion of me, it’s about self awareness, and me being the best person I can be. I am glad I am writing this on my blog, because it will be a constant reminder to myself that I have resolved to do this, and hopefully I have the capacity to reach my desires.
Wish me luck friends… I think I will need it!
BAM!!!