True Colours

Like a Rainbow

Published on April 19, 2004 By Muggaz In Just Hanging Out

I have been staring blankly at this screen for a while now.

I know how to handle it when someone complains or questions something I do or say... It makes it a lot easier when you actually know the person as well, so you can understand why they perhaps have been offended. I don't go around out of my way to offend anyone, although I really like to think I wear my heart on my sleeve and tell it like it is.

I am admitting to you guys right now - I am so royally pissed at present it's not funny.

Someone recently remarked that my "True Colours" had come out, and that it was a bit rough on them... I am trying to ask myself, have I changed at all since I have been here at JU? have I ever deliberately held anything back for fear of hurting anyone?

Let me reassure you all right now, JU is Muggaz 100% Live. When someone questions my character - they aren't questioning an isolated incident, they are questioning the person I have worked ever so hard to become over the last 22 years of my life. A person who knows how to have fun, yet a person of immense integrity and honour, and of course respect.

You know why this is getting to me? Well, I don't, but if someone can tell me, please let me know.

This world is a nasty, nasty, nasty place, and to counter this, I don't let it get to me, and I move along trying to be the best person I can be - sometimes this is all I have, the fact that I am a good person, and I will be ok...

You with the sad eyes
Don't be discouraged
Oh I realize
It's hard to take courage
In a world full of people
You can lose sight of it all
And the darkness inside you
Can make you feel so small

But I see your true colours
Shining through
I see your true colours
And that's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colours
True colours are beautiful,
Like a rainbow

Show me a smile then,
Don't be unhappy, can't remember
When I last saw you laughing
If this world makes you crazy
And you've taken all you can bear
You call me up
Because you know I'll be there

And I'll see your true colours
Shining through
I see your true colours
And that's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colours
True colours are beautiful,
Like a rainbow

My True Colours will ALWAYS be shining through.

BAM!!!

Comments

Mackintosh

on Apr 19, 2004

You holding back? I don't think so. At least I haven't noticed any change in your "pattern" of posting articles or replies. Maybe subconsciously some things are stifled, but that happens to everyone. I don't know why it's getting to you, maybe because you weren't expecting it. Relax mate, it's all good.

Tangled Wishes

on Apr 19, 2004

Oh Muggaz your true colOURS are beautiful. See I spelled it "English" just for you.

I know why you're mad, I get mad about that sometimes too.

People take potshots at you and accuse of being something you're not, or pretending to be something, and it's angering because you've done your best to be exactly who you are.

Sometimes people are too blind to see, sometimes they're already angry about something and take it out on anyone who crosses their path, and sometimes people are just plain petty.

I do know that it sucks, though, and it's like, what the hell? I mean, what can you do about it? Nothing. And that's what's important. Just remember, YOU'RE SPESH to me!! And I know for a fact that you've got to be spesh to a lot of other people too.

And just to repeat myself, you've shown me YOUR true colours and will always be amazing in my eyes.

~Anne

dharmagrl

on Apr 19, 2004

This world is a nasty, nasty, nasty place, and to counter this, I don't let it get to me, and I move along trying to be the best person I can be - sometimes this is all I have, the fact that I am a good person, and I will be ok...

Dude, I believe that's all that's really necessary.

I know who/what you're talking about....and I have to say that I've always found you 100% honest, sometimes bluntly so. You are who you are, and you have never made any apologies for that...or the things that you do. In fact, I'd go so far as to say that you're a bit of an open book sometimes. I like that.

Keep on keepin' on Muggaz, and never change.

imajinit

on Apr 19, 2004

True Colours...

True Dat

Blog On

BAM!

crimson

on Apr 19, 2004

You know how I feel.

Muggaz

on Apr 19, 2004

FC Nicky. FC

You guys, well... I cant explain how much you all do mean to me.. I suppose i would feel the same if any of you had said this about me... but then again, you guys aren't manipulative young girls...

I will turn this temporary moment of weakness into a permanent strength... I hope you guys DO feel the love!

BAM!!!

MadPoet41

on Apr 19, 2004

Muggaz~I just want to let you know that I have ALWAYS found you to be an especially honest and fair dude~I mean, I can't think of even ONE example where you were being mean spirited and petty to another blogger. You have always been very generous in your support of me, and many other bloggers at JU too. But it is your INTEGRITY that has impressed me the most dude. So I thank you for being the person you are. I mean, you tell it like it IS dude~not very many people can be that brave.

I know of the situation you speak of? I think the person who said those words to you was pretty hurt and angry and upset~so they lashed out at you in the heat of the moment. I did become VERY upset myself when I first read ALL those criticisms of JU bloggers (and all in one fell swoop!). So many of those bloggers were folks that I had come to like and respect a lot~especially you and Capt. Cornbread. And I was one of the people being commented on too in that blog (although in a less harsh manner for sure)~so I completely understand where you are coming from dude.

But now where do we go with all of this? The person who accused you of the "true colours" thing has stated they are gonna leave JU forever (last time I checked~anyways). They said they were sorry for hurting the feelings of certain bloggers~but that they needed to stop being so fake. I admit this sounds a little confusing~the whole thing IS confusing. And it just seems to be getting bigger and bigger with each new blog and/or comment on the situation.

I just wanna finish this now and tell you that I think you are a really cool person, and I know many people are with me on that. I don't think you deserved the criticisms you got from that blogger at all. Most of us didn't? Or at least in not such a public and kinda personal sorta way, huh? That's what initially disturbed me the most about that original post. But I have already made my peace with that person~ And I tried to focus on many of the more positive aspects of this person's character I have seen demonstrated on JU~because there is always good to be found in most human beings. I wish none of this would have happened in the first place~but it has. So where do we go with it now? Dharma once wrote a beautiful article about letting go? And that's what I am trying to do in this situation~and that's why I said what I said to that blogger that got the ball rolling here. But I will never alter my high opinion of you dude: Muggaz is the best~fearless and loyal and true. And that's why so many folks will always like your true colours a lot.

~MadPoet

Mackintosh

on Apr 20, 2004

I refuse to feel the love unless you throw in a tub of vaseline.

messybuu

on Apr 20, 2004

It's not weak to be hurt by the words of somebody you care about. Weakness would be acting badly in reaction to those words. Still, if you could be immune to the pain, and still have a heart, then more power to you!

Muggaz

on Apr 20, 2004

If that image doesn't work - It's that Vaseline you require Macky... where would the world be today without lubrication?

BAM!!!

Teegstar

on Apr 20, 2004

a heartfelt article mug, and i have no doubt that we see the real you....

... BUT WHY THAT SONG?

all i can hear when i read those lyrics is the whiny voice of one of the Young Talent Time team in the Final Farewell.

*shudders*

Muggaz

on Apr 20, 2004

HeHe...

Its funny Teegs... I had that song in my head the whole day, I got home and downloaded heaps of different versions - Phil Collins is by far the cheesiest/crappest... I like Casy Chambers version...

The song may suck, but the Lyrics are tremendous! It said exactly what i wanted it to say.

BAM!!!

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