Asking the Hard Questions

it has to be done.

Published on March 31, 2004 By Muggaz In Just Hanging Out

Sometimes you have to ask yourself the hard questions... I.e. Would you rather have the powers of 'The Flash' or $100 million smackeroonies?

I wonder which one you would choose...

Some people would simply blurt out their preferred choice, but this is a notion that requires serious thought. The Flash is seriously one tough customer, but $100 million is a damn lot of money. Of course this is change to someone like Sir Peter Maxwell, but to the likes of me that amount is borderline ridiculous.

I am not going to tell you what I would choose, because it should be painfully obvious for all that know me which one I would choose, it would be an interesting gauge of how well you people know me should you guess correctly or incorrectly, but I think most of know which I would choose...

As a side note, life is going well at the moment... I don't really have much to complain about... I ended up taking the day off from work on Monday because my brain was a total void, and there was absolutely no processing activity going on in there whatsoever because of the weekends activities. I have been discussing the occurrence with a lot of my friends, and I will be standing by my conviction to not abuse ecstasy when I am at a club, My body just does not agree with it, and we cant go making my body mad, because we have to get along!

Linas and myself just played Rise of Nations all day long... I am a bit ashamed to admit, but being an uber geek was really fun. I have got to say I am addicted to that ridiculous but simply amazing game... It is such a great game, and my brother, Linas and myself can talk about it for ages!!! I got a 4 port modem/router with my new ADSL connection, so we are going to bust some serious multiplayer action... NEEEEEERRRRRRDDD I hear you hollar from wherever it is you are... little do you know that the game is so detailed, that perfecting the tactical moves will ultimately contribute to my world domination...

Over the last few days I have also had a lot of thinking time... I don't really know how to describe it, but I am a pensive person, and I never get bored, so when I am not pre-occupied I can enter deep thought... unfortunately the subject matter of my thoughts have been bitter and jaded of late, but logical none the less...

I have just been thinking to myself how come humans are so emotional? why don't we all realise it's within our best interests to be self centred assholes? I have felt Love, I know what its like, and there is no other feeling that tops it, but I have also felt the pain resulting from losing someone I love, whether through death or them just being bitch*s, and I find myself questioning is it worth it?

I wonder if I have two children, and totally shun one (whilst looking after it appropriately) and totally smoother one with Love what the outcome would be??? It's the ones you love the most that have the capacity to hurt you so much... whether its through a death, or a broken friendship, or a failed relationship, all these things break your heart and cause immeasurable pain that only time can heal, and we have no control over time, but we do have control over our emotions...

I will never become a heartless bastard, I simply have too much love to give, sometime I just hate that fact though... I hate the fact that I find it easy to Love someone, and I have been brought up in a caring environment, when clearly I would not have had my heart broken from loving people like my Dad, friends and lovers I have lost...

At the same time, I would not have experienced the immense joys I did with these people, if I didn't care for them as much.

It all comes down to the fact that life is a game, and to win in the game, just like any real 'game' you have to have your head right, and you have to have a certain amount of skill. No matter how many people think they get the last laugh, you must remember that he who laughs last always cries first.

There is no such thing as the perfect life, I suppose that's what so amazing about us as a people, no 2 are exactly the same, and you will find adapters are the most successful people, people who can read, analyse and adapt to every situation... I am learning these ways, I have made it my mission in life to do so. This is why I am going OS by myself at the end of the year, I have to rely on myself, and know that I can, because you cant rely on the world to look out for you, it's a tough place out there... not if you have the powers of the Flash though, but I suppose it would be hard for him to, because with power comes responsibility.... oh, the list goes on...

Anywho... Yesterday night we played soccer and at the moment Nameless F.C is sitting on top of division 4. We played the team that is in second to us at the moment - the team we lost our last Grand Final too, and we came out with a draw, and due to the nature of the game, both teams were happy with that result. I felt great after last nights game... its somewhat of a detox because of the amount I sweat, and we had some good team action going on... when we play like that I always look forward to the next game!

Tonight we are going out for dinner and drinks for Adrian and Gemma's b'day at some Malaysian restaurant. I am looking forward to it, because it will be nice food, good people, and just a lot of fun... I just have to concentrate on having fun... and let me assure you, this is not a problem for me

righteo... thanks for reading and enjoy whatever it is you will be doing...

BAM!!!

Comments

Dan Kaschel

on Mar 31, 2004

1) That was one long side note.

2) Good article, enjoyed reading your stuff as always

3) Who the heck is "the flash?!"

~Dan

Muggaz

on Mar 31, 2004

Kids have no initiative these days...

Link

BAM!!!

new-age nomad

on Apr 01, 2004

*shakes head in dismay* Muggaz, Muggaz, Muggaz......

You must have really been in love to have your heart tainted in such a way that you would turn away from....from....I don't know.
You're right, love is a wonderful emotion. To give up on it is to give up on the meaning of life.

Oh, and if you have two children, one of them being a shun, would you not love him as much? I didn't get your point there.

I was thinking today that no 2 people have ever written the same poetry (minus plagarism). What a wonderful thought. No matter how similar all of our feelings and emotions tend to be, our reactions are always inventive and exciting. That's what makes the world an experiment, and that's why I love it.

Wonderful article.

Trinitie

Sherye Hanson

on Apr 01, 2004

You are quite a person. You have such depth but yet you love to play so much. Emotions are something that we don't really control. We just are able to hold them at bay. You can however, choose not to be with someone you love if you know that they will end up hurting you. I think that you will find it hard not to fall in love again.

Muggaz

on Apr 01, 2004

You can however, choose not to be with someone you love if you know that they will end up hurting you. I think that you will find it hard not to fall in love again.

I know i will fall in Love again, its something i cant live without... i love nothing more than to spend a Sunday morning with someone i love, curled up under the doona just enjoying each other's company... but you hit the nail on the head... I have simply grown as a person, and i am not as naive as i once was... When i do enter a relationship, it will be with someone i trust completely... if anything, i feel sorry for the poor girls out there, because they wont get to enjoy the Muggaz experience unless they earn my trust, and Trin is right, i have been hurt so much, not by actions as much, but by being so naive and totally letting all my defensive barriers down... In spite of what you say Sherye, I can control that... and i am also very glad that you dont find me shallow, that is a very big compliment

Trin, I would never commit such an action.. both my children will be loved un-conditionally, but it would be interesting to see which child would go further in the world... Emotions hold so many people back, but they also project people to new and higher levels as well...

AHHHHHH Life is so hard sometimes!!!!!!!!

serenity now... serenity now... serenity now...

BAM!!!

Dan... that link doesn't work... go to google and look up 'The Flash'

Dan Kaschel

on Apr 02, 2004

lol I looked at the link and figures as much.

You're accusing me of having no initiative?! If you you knew, "ye of little faith."

~Dan

Muggaz

on Apr 02, 2004

Daniel Son,

I dont have little faith at all... My faith is not placed in a'supreme being' though... it's placed in myself and my friends...

My initiative is so great, i already had this typed before you replied

BAM!!!

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