Me and MDMA - we just aren't friends anymore.

Bizarre Evening

Published on March 28, 2004 By Muggaz In Just Hanging Out

I think i need to take it easy for a while as far as that silly ecstasy drug goes...

I went out last night to Factory... I was really primed for a great evening, i was in a good mood because all my friends were going to be there. I got these pills from a friend of mines roommate. They were the biggest pills i have ever seen to date. He told me they were pretty mutch MDMA bombs - when tested in the drug kit, the results came out as pure black. They were called White Smurfs - i had heard of them before, and evrything i heard was good, but as always, i checked them out on Pill Reports, a most valuable resource for the responsible party animal.

Because of their size, i decided to only have half. That was fine for about 45 minutes... but i just wasn' in the same frame of mind as i had been on previous occasions. I banged the other half down at the beggining of Linas and Adrian's set... I tried my hardest to dance for the whole duration, but i was absolutely wasted and i needed to relax. I sweat heaps, and i wasn't wasted enough so that would be a non-issue - it was annoying me immensely.

I was over taken by this feeling of anxiousness... i suppose you could call it a mild anxiety attack... i just wasn't comfortable with whatever i was doing, and i most certainly couldn't dance all evening - in fact, i danced for a grand total of maybe 3 minutes after Linas and Adrian's set... I was simply incapacitated with wild thoughts going through my head and i couldn't do anything about it. I wanted to talk to people and not talk to them, i was just worried about everything and just sat there alone with my insecurities and aspirations.

The word i would choose to most aptly describe last nights adventures would be bizarre. At the moment i am still quite scattered. Daylight savings ended last night though, so i managed to get to bed by 7.00am... I know what i need to do to prevent these whole episodes from taking place, and it pains me to say it, because some of you will just shake your heads at me... but i must counter the effects of the drugs with other drugs.

I must make an oath to myself to not take any ecstacy without speed... the effects of MDMA by itself are just too un-predictable. One week you will be flying, and the next you will have an episiode like last night. To acheive a desired compromise the sedation must be countered by aphetamines... I am also going to dicipline myself. Instead of taking ecstasy on club nights like last night, i must reserve my desires until a special occasion - i.e. an International DJ or band, or perhaps a birthday party. On club nights i must simply be happy with a little bit of speed and my good friend alcohol.

I did have a few gin and tonics at the pub down the road before hand though, It was one of my distant friends birthdays, and one of my best friends Danny, who lives in Brisbane managing our office up there, was down for the week. It was only a 5 minute walk from my house, so it wasn't any trouble. It was excellent to catch up with a few people i hadn't seen in a while, but i seriously dont think it contributed to my state of mind.

I woke up at about 12.00pm today - its been a surprisingly warm day. I just booted on down to Camberwell to get a couple of coffees for Linas and myself, and we have pretty much vegged out all day. My brain really couldn't handle doing to much today - so we have played Rise of Nations with each other all day long. That game is absolute Pro Level. Definitely one of the best real time strategy games i have ever played.

Yesterday before we went out, my brother and the boys came over. Tim wanted to play me in Chess because we haven't played each other in a while. I have refused to play because he got better than me and was able to beat me quite convincingly. I came into the game and told him not to give me crap when he won - which is what he used to do in true brotherly fashion. He fell for my ploy. I have been playing some serious chess with Linas over the past week or so, and my game has improved markedly - i beat him this time, and now i will leave it at that and play him next time i feel like it. Again in true brotherly fashion i will quip "You're only as good as your last game!" I was very chuffed with my victory.

I hope i recover well for work tomorrow. I dont imagine i will get to sleep for a while. Meg is coming over and bringing us dinner and some DVD's. I am sure a coffee at the train station will do what it always does and pick me right up. I should be fine - from the best of my knowledge at this point in time i dont have a busy week ahead of me. Laima and Stella might come over for another chizz as they did on Friday night, and that would be cool, and i dont know which day i have soccer this week - and i will make sure i go to before 12.00 at least twice this week. I think i will be fine.

I hope you all had a good weekend, and may the forthcoming week be a new adventure!

BAM!!!

Comments (Page 1)

Dan Kaschel

on Mar 28, 2004

Shouldn't mix booze and pills, bro. I'm not gonna preach, but be careful, man. I'd hate to see you disappear from JoeUser.

~Dan

imajinit

on Mar 28, 2004

must... fight... the... urge... to .... preach....

made it

Muggaz

on Mar 28, 2004

Thanks for your concern Dan, but i know what i am doing mate!!!

In fact, i would be a little bit worried about you if you had any idea on the subject at all!

Muggaz can handle himself

BAM!!!

dharmagrl

on Mar 28, 2004

You know what you need to do, so I'm just going to leave it at that. I refuse to preach to other people because I hate being preached to myself.

Sherye Hanson

on Mar 28, 2004

I have friends who are experts on drugs. Their expertise landed them in places you wouldn't want to go to. But you'll have to find out for yourself. There are some drugs that make you experience psychosis. Not a pleasant experience.
Sherye Hanson

new-age nomad

on Mar 28, 2004

You've got me really worried about you Mark. *tear*

Trinitie

Sir Peter Maxwell

on Mar 28, 2004

I put my eccentricities down to my extensive use of LSD in the 70's - never did me any harm!

Janders

on Mar 28, 2004

I would hate to see you disapear from this site, because I really enjoy your bog. Please be careful. I won' t preach.
Joey

Dan Kaschel

on Mar 28, 2004

lol this site is just full of people who won't preach:)

~Dan

new-age nomad

on Mar 28, 2004

I'll preach, by God.

haha

Trinitie

Muggaz

on Mar 28, 2004

People People!!!!

Its under control... i am actually a little overwhelmed by the support you guys are showing here, and i really do appreciate your concern... Its really something else...

What a bunch of absoute champions you all are...

Dont worry, i realise the world would be a much worse place if it were void of the Mug Man, let a lone Joe User... so i dont plan on going anywhere

BAM!!!

Dan Kaschel

on Mar 28, 2004

"I'll preach, by God."

Preach it sistah! lol...

Muggaz- glad you feel that way.

~Dan

Tangled Wishes

on Mar 29, 2004

Lol babe, they all care about your safety and wellbeing. How could one get through the day without Muggaz??

I, on the other hand, feel no need to preach.

Dear Joeusers! Most drugusers are experienced enough to know what goes good with what. Sometimes it's because of misfortunate mishaps (

) but it's all good!!!

I trust ya Mugz

!Anne

new-age nomad

on Mar 29, 2004

I'm missing your blogs, bro. Where ya at?

Trinitie

Muggaz

on Mar 30, 2004

Been a bit busy and evidently wasted ^^ lately babe!!!!

dont worry... no lack of inspiration... I will write one tomorrow i promise

BAM!!!

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