that's Average Joe, Brad...
I have found a passion in writing. I was never so into writing as I have been over the last few months. The concept of my opinion being viewed and thought about from all corners of the globe is rather enticing to me. I have had a lot of friends read and comment on a few of my pieces, and I can’t help to have my ego lifted a little by their compliments.
This is what is doing my head in… I feel as though I am digressing around here. I have developed ambitions to write, and write well, and most of all, be noticed. I feel my jovial attitude on life and my sometimes non-conformist activities remove any credibility I have. I suppose I am just being selfish. I am being a baby and wanting to be number one, always the centre of attention… not necessarily the centre… but with all the new writers around here, I want them to know who I am and what I am about… I am being told I am a good writer by many poeple, but not by the people who's opinions can take me to the next level.
Some people have suggested perhaps JU isn’t what I am looking for… this is causing me major grief, because I love the personalities here, and I love the interaction, but maybe they are right? I don’t want them to be right.
As long as Brad runs this site, I suppose I will swallow humble pie. I am no-one to him… no matter how much of a power hungry capitalist hawk he is, he is one smart dude, and if I achieve in my life half of what he has, I will be happy.
I have been asking Sir Peter (another power hungry capitalist - but a fine English gentleman!) if he could run a blog site… I think he is seriously considering it… A lot of people around here would like it if he and I left and took our crack pot notions and attitudes with us – but as I have said, I don’t particularly want to leave.
This is ridiculous – JU has helped me discover a passion, and I want to continue with my passion, but I have always been self sufficient, and at the moment I can’t continue on my terms.
That stupid ranking system – that’s what is driving me insane. Why am I such a freaken elitist? I am not *bitter* (hehe) at all at those that do well here… I am just insanely jealous… I want to be the best… I want people to know what I think, and I want them to invite me into their heads and hearts.
Not only the ranking system, but Brads little power user concept… how does one get to be respected enough by him to obtain power user status? I thought is was JoeUser? Not BradUser?
Anything that’s subjective to Brad’s opinion irks me, because I know there is absolutely nothing I can do about it… I want to be a power user, I think I have earned the right to be a power user, Imajinit, and Dharmagrl also deserve to be a power users… and to tell you the truth, I envisage they would be bestowed with the status way before I would… I just want to know the qualities Brad looks for in a Power User?
Brad doesn’t really have his finger on the pulse of the whole site… the users he has bestowed these little privileges upon, I have nothing but respect for them, but just because some people stay away from the political articles, they are shunned and deemed un-trustworthy to hold any status…
I would also say the site is not really adequately named… That’s what appealed to me about this place in the beginning (other than it was free) It was a blog site for anyone, to write about anything… May I suggest a domain change www.politicsresponsibleadultsuser.com? If you aren’t circulating around these people, you won’t get any respect as a stalwart of this site.
It seems as though I am destined to fade for the time being… not completely fade, but as the site grows, I suppose fewer and fewer people will know who I am or what I stand for… Muggaz will never ever change though… I guess if who I am can’t get me where I want to be whilst I am here, I will eventually have to leave… but I have faith in the site, and I look forward to it becoming a premium service – I eagerly await the day the real top articles are the ones that are featured.
Patience is not a virtue of mine, I must tell you that… I just want the dynamics of this site to reflect the JoeUser… I want a nice well rounded place, where everyone can find what they are looking for, and not be overwhelmed by any particular facet, or group of users – especially in your face on the feature page.
This is making me feel a whole lot better… so much tension is gone since I began writing this… JU has seriously become part of my life… I think things, and then I imagine writing an article about it…
There is an Australian band called the Skyhooks – and they sang a song called Ego… in the song one of the lines is “Ego is not a dirty word” I don’t think it is… What is wrong with me wanting to succeed in whatever it is I do? It all comes with practice.
Reading over this, wondering if I should post it, because it looks remarkably like a whinge… which is not my style. This is how I feel about the situation though, I wont let it eat me up inside, but I will continue to do what I can to better my situation and I would like to see myself as one of the advocate’s for the JoeUser.
Refraining to post this – well, that’s not my style either… maybe its disquiet amongst the ranks, because whether Brad likes it or not, I am one of his, and JoeUsers soldiers, If not a ranking officer… If people don’t see it that way, fair enough, but I love this place, and as Jill says, it is my home. I don’t walk away from my home when things aren’t going well… I will just anticipate whatever happens next.
I guess this is a thought provoking article on your opinions of the dynamics of the site… are you happy with the way things are going? At first I came here to write, I didn’t realise I would be successful… Brad has admitted his objectiveness when it comes to featuring and exposure, I just feel like I am being overlooked because of who I am… or rather, who I am not.
Let me close in saying, I will deal with whatever is thrown at me, and I will continue with my head held high, but there are so many people within this community that make it what it is, and that is really special – I think Brad is underestimating that power.
BAM!!!